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Once Upon a Moroccan Wedding

One of my favorite parts about my job at Feminin Pluriel was the wide variety of students that I got to work with and invest in... Everything from 6 year old beginners to astrophysicists seeking to improve their writing abilities for their PhD dissertations! It was through my work at the center that I met Noureddine, a computer designer in my advanced conversation class. In class, I could always count on Nourredine to have a smile on his face and a profound point to make during discussion. One day after class in late June, I was joking around with my students after a great dialogue about international wedding traditions, saying how it was my dream to go to a Moroccan wedding. Noureddine perked up, and said that he actually had a friend getting married after Ramadan, and if I and the other volunteer wanted to go, he would happily take us along!

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Almost a month later, Demi (the other volunteer) and I found ourselves in complete shock at the overwhelming amount of generosity our dear student showed us in making my dream come true. After spending his whole day with us adventuring together around the city, Noureddine introduced us to his sister and her beautiful family, where Demi and I were quickly named honorary tantes, the French word for aunts, to his sweet niece Amira. After his wonderful brother-in-law picked us up and brought us to their apartment, Noureddine’s lovely sister Kawtar loaned each of us two of her beautiful caftans and helped us get ready for our very first Moroccan wedding! She even helped us prepare our gift for the bride and groom!

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For the first time, Demi and I felt like we were part of a family here, the value of which is simply insurmountable when you have been living far away from home for so long.

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But the story doesn’t end there. At the wedding, a most assuredly exhausted Noureddine introduced us to his friends, took pictures, and kindly watched over our purses as we dove headfirst into one of the most authentic cultural experiences of my life thus far. Fun fact: traditional Moroccan weddings start at 9:00 P.M. and last until about 5:00 A.M. (So yes, we were quite literally dancing all night long.) The bride entered the venue for the first time with her groom at around 11:00 in a beautiful white caftan. The couple would exit and re-enter the space four times, sporting a different ensemble every time. Pictured below you can see the bride in her brilliant blue, yellow, and green caftans, though red is another color often added into the mix. Though each entrance serves a purpose, I thought the most profound was that of the groom’s family, following their third entrance, to present them with wedding gifts. It was so cool to see the whole family have such an outward role in the ongoing ceremony!

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As those of you who know me well will not be surprised to hear, I spent 90% of my time making friends on the dance floor. I was quickly adopted by Noureddine’s friend Houda, and we had a blast dancing together with her other friends! I didn’t even realize how much time had past when it came time to leave! But eventually, Noureddine retrieved Demi and I from the dance floor to go back to his sister’s house, where we slept over after one of the most incredible and surreal nights of my life.

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Stargazing in the Sahara

Last weekend, I joined the group of West Point cadets for a weekend camping in the Sahara desert. The cadets are led by a professor of comparative politics and anthropology, who has become an incredible resource to me as I research and observe the society and culture around me. Her perspective is poignant and challenges me to continue to search for new manifestations of women’s empowerment in the Islamist and Arab culture, as well as the Moroccan political identity. But besides that, she and the rest of the cadets have become very, very dear friends to me. I feel so incredibly fortunate to have been able to spend so much time with their group in the last few weeks. Below is a photo of our group (WP plus their four tagalongs!) on our way to the desert.

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To get to the Sahara, we drove 10 hours through the Moroccan countryside before arriving in the neighboring town of Merzouga. It was incredible to watch the scenery change from urban residences to winding cliffs of dense forest, to eventually an infinite horizon of sand. To give you a better idea of where we were geographically, we were about 25 miles away from the Algerian border. We spent Friday evening in a hotel before waking up early Saturday morning to explore. We visited Berber artisan shops and attended an abidat ra concert. Abidat ra is a unique type of music that is native to Morocco , whose subject matter illustrate the nomadic roots and religious undertones of the Berber ethnicities prevalent throughout the region. It is extremely dissonant, but especially hypnotic and captivating when it’s performed live. Here is an action shot of us dancing with the performers! (Note the Audrey Hepburn-inspired headscarf... It was a great way to keep cool in the desert, and avoid getting sand in my face when it got windy!)

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At around 6:00 PM that day, we embarked on our sunset camel trek to our campsite in the Sahara. The last time I was on a camel was two years ago  in the Gobi desert in northwestern China, during a blistering hot afternoon. It was one of my favorite adventures in China, and so naturally I could hardly contain my excitement to mount a camel once again and enjoy a beautiful sunset as Merzouga disappeared behind me. I took the lead camel, feeling bold, and named him Hatim after my favorite child to care for at the local orphanage. After an incredible sunset and 45-minute ride, we arrived at our campsite for a mouthwatering dinner of tagine chicken and steamed vegetables. After that, we stayed up into the wee hours of the morning lying outside entranced by the constellations of stars above. The stargazing was the most incredible I’ve experienced... We saw five shooting stars and located two of my favorite constellations (Hercules and Pegasus) using the SkyGuide app (INVEST IN THIS APP) before falling asleep under the stars.

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I woke up early with our guide Hamza to watch the sunrise, which was every bit as mesmerizing as the sunset we watched the night before. After we finished cleaning up camp, we saddled back up to return to Merzouga for breakfast before returning back to Rabat.

It was an absolutely indescribable weekend of experiencing the most majestic natural landscapes and culturally influenced art, and these pictures truly only scratch the surface.

I look forward to sharing more in detail about this weekend during my Lumos presentation this fall!

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In my next post, I’ll be focusing about the changes happening once again in the classroom at Feminin Pluriel... Challenges and frustration are just as important to document as life changing weekends in the desert, after all!

The Blue Pearl

Originally founded in 1471, the city of Chefchaouen has a profoundly rich history. Located in the Rif mountains of northern Morocco, the natural scenery surrounding the city is striking. However, the thing that sets Chefchouen apart is actually found within the city walls... The uniquely blue city walls, to be specific. When I visited Chefchaouen last weekend, I was absolutely blown away by the sea of blue that surrounded me. It’s no wonder why they call it the Blue Pearl. I did my best to capture the beauty of the city in the pictures below, but know that this is truly a place that one needs to experience firsthand to fully appreciate! 
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The pictures truly speak for themselves when it comes to a city like Chefchaouen! Check back later this week for a more reflective update summarizing some of the biggest lessons I’ve learned in my first month abroad... Because believe it or not, it really has been a whole month since I was last on American soil!

 

Ancient History, Contemporary Development, & Empowering a Community

Fun fact: Since 2002, Rabat has hosted the Mawazine Music Festival: Rhythmes du Monde. (Rhythms of the World) Artists from all over the globe come to perform, as well as local Moroccan talent, with 90% of the shows being free of charge to maintain a high standard of accessibility for the Moroccan population. In addition to a number of other external sponsors, the Maroc Cultures Association ensures the festival’s unique economic independence from public funds. The festival is touted as one of the largest in the world, and is held in Rabat because the capital city of Morocco is seen as “an intermediary between tradition and modernity” that transforms from a UNESCO World Heritage Site to an open air venue where artists from all walks in life and career perform. Seriously, give it a Google, it really is that cool.

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As a proud Nashville transplant and music enthusiast, my interest was piqued. I confess that I’ve never been to an American music festival before, but this was simply not something I could afford to miss. Fantastic promotion of upcoming Moroccan artists, not to mention a few familiar names gracing the lineup just in time for my second weekend in the city, (Shaggy, Christina Aguliera, and Pitbull, just to name a few) and all at no charge! So a fellow volunteer and I decided to go on Friday night to see Shaggy perform and experience this festival in full. And what an experience it was! We were surprised to note that we were largely the only women in the audience... Likely as surprised as the men were by our presence, I imagine! Now if you read travel guides about visiting Morocco, one of the most fervent warnings for young women in particular is the frequent catcalling from men while walking around. In my experience, the key to handling these unwanted interactions is to refuse acknowledgment of their existence overall. If you give them nothing to go off of, you leave them with no direction to pursue, and they desist. Even a glance in their direction can be seen as encouragement, and so it is best to try and exude “back off” with every movement of your body. Some will still pursue, but in that case a sharp word in either French or Arabic while stroking one finger down from your eye to your cheek should do the trick. This facial gesture means “shame”, and is often used by mothers when children misbehave. Thus, it is particularly shocking and offensive when a foreign woman adopts a gesture they are used to seeing from their mother! We can chat more on the nature of living in a strongly inherent patriarchal society in a later post. For now, needless to say, Kelly and I were worried about what we had just walked into as not only females, but as clear foreigners. How would these men adapt? Would it be uncomfortable harassment? Would we have to leave early? Alas, none of the above. Despite it being the identical demographic to our daytime hecklers, these concert goers went out of their way to give us space, to the point where it felt as if we had an invisible shield around us. The only questions asked were if we could see okay, and would we like them to move over more in any direction to better accommodate. It was quite the surprising change of pace from the mosh pit I was expecting, akin to what I’ve heard about music festivals in the US.

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The concert itself was a wildly amusing trip down memory lane as we enjoyed a number of blasts from the past from Shaggy’s golden years. There was a lot of dancing, though all male on male, due to the aforementioned lack of females. I’m looking forward to continuing to analyze the societal pressures and structures at work here, specifically the role of the patriarchy, but seeing as I’m only two weeks in I feel it best to keep observing before embarking on such a post in the next month or so!


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Harkening back to the idea of history transformed, one of the venues for the Mawazine Festival was the Chellah ruins, located in the south of Rabat. The festival is accurate in describing Morocco as a profound cross section of ancient history and increased development, which can be seen in the adapted modern use of the ruins not just as an archaeological site, but a frequented place for concerts, families, and young couples seeking to escape the constant lack of privacy. The ruins are left from Phoenician and Carthaginian settlement in the third century BC, but were later refurbished as the Roman city of Sala Colonia according to Ptolemy’s writings, which dated around 40 CE. Eventually the city was taken by a Berber tribe and fortified to protect from Spanish invaders. The remainder of some of the fortress walls are pictured below. When the Romans abandoned the city, it became a burial ground until the 13th century when the Merinid dynasty resettled the city by building a mosque and other structures whose remnants remain today. Though I recognize that history is certainly not everyone’s cup of tea, I felt it important to discuss in the blog because the ancient history of Morocco is, in my opinion, still very much alive in the contemporary culture. Walking through the ruins, I was struck to think of how many generations of feet had followed the path through the city that my feet now walked, not to mention how many more would follow in years to come. Unlike the archaeological site in Xian, China where the Terracotta Warriors stand tall, walking through the Chellah ruins feels nothing like a museum or a tourist attraction. It more so feels like a park that just so happens to have incomprehensible historical depth in addition to being a lovely place for an afternoon stroll.

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As a side note, the ruins are also home to most impressive stork nests I imagine one will ever see.  Yes, I mean storks as an the bird that delivers babies to your neighbor’s doorstep from time to time. For a second there, I thought I was looking out into the flawless CGI background of Jurassic World or Avatar gauging from the remarkable size of these nests. The storks were also in mating season, clucking their beaks quite loudly, which made for an interesting soundtrack as we meandered around the old city!

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Finally, as promised, I am so excited to share what I’ve been teaching (and learning!) in the classroom at the Empowerment Center. Many have asked me, why Morocco? And though there are many answers to that question, one of the most relevant reasons to my project here is the definitive need to improve national education.

Morocco is not what I would call a poor African country. It enjoys a rare stability thanks to the autonomy of the monarchy, which has protected it from the struggles faced by many other African and/or Islamist countries. While it is still developing, it is leagues ahead of many of its neighbors.

However, for all its success, there is still a lot to be done in the kingdom before it can claim developed status. This can be summed up with two simple words: education and equality. Schools are publicly funded in Morocco, but as a result the quality of education is often compromised. Private schools – once looked down upon as the schools where students who failed one too many times would have to attend – are increasingly in popularity with those who can afford it thanks to the guaranteed quality and opportunities it offers. Meanwhile, kids in rural regions struggle to find consistent transportation to and from school, and kids in urban areas share their pain of finding a way to pay for their school supplies.

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The Empowerment Center I work at provides free English lessons to anyone and everyone. The office space is located in the heart of the city, but my students come from all over the region. I admit, these classes are not at all how I had imagined they would be. Halfway through my second week, I scrapped my detailed lesson plans for building up technical grammar skills and vocabulary in favor of a new approach to accommodate the many challenges of my classroom: generational differences, varying levels of general education, and implicit gender biases, just to name a few. My new approach is entirely conversation-based, where I introduce a topic question and have my students speak to their opinions on the matter. Occasionally I have them write brief statements or paragraphs to read aloud to improve heir comfort speaking the language, and sometimes I integrate American music for them to practice listening comprehension and application. (Most recently, I used the Hamilton soundtrack to supplement a lesson reviewing proper use of the three types of past tense to discuss the history of America’s revolution with a “Who’s Who” on American currency, in honor of Memorial Day. One of my favorite lessons thus far!)

 

One of my dear students and I after class!

One of my dear students and I after class!

 

When asked about how they would change the national education system, I watched in amazement as their eyes universally brightened, impassioned by the introduction of a subject that has affected them all in some way despite their different stages of life. “There needs to be more funding allocated to the rural districts,” declared my econometrics major. “We need to improve the scholarship funds to help those who can’t afford to continue their education in their own,” explained my often quiet but just astute engineer. “There needs to be a way for us to do things like you are doing here, Teacher. A way for us to go places and share our culture and our skills. Without those opportunities, Morocco won’t have a bright future.”

Right now, they're my playful neighbors. But tomorrow, they could be world leaders... Who knows! But they are who we fight for.

Right now, they’re my playful neighbors. But tomorrow, they could be world leaders... Who knows! But regardless of who they will become, they are who we fight for. They are the future.

 

This is why I chose to come here. Not just to teach English and immerse in a foreign culture, because there are many places one could pursue that. I came to Morocco specifically because it is a country on the edge of what I believe to be great potential, and it is my hope that by leading discussions like this, my students will heed the spark of desire for change and pursue making a difference in their country as only they can. Young and old, female and male, it is my goal to show them how strong they can be as a united front in advocating for a brighter future.

To conclude, I want to leave you with the inspiring words of one of my students in response to today’s conversation question: Can money buy happiness? The author is a vivacious older woman whose sense of humor and intellectual depth know no bounds:

“Happiness comes from our mind, which we find in good company. It comes also when we see the future generation will live in a world without war. In a world of peace and love, without chemical products. We in the world where we feel we are all brother and sister, with no difference in color or religion. As Martin Luther King Jr said, I have a dream. This is my dream for happiness.”

This is why I am so grateful to be here, investing in these people’s lives as best I can, for the next three months. No one gives me hope for the future quite like they do, which is a feeling I hope will continue to propel me forward as I continue my work here. Thank you for reading, as always I am so lucky to have so many others be a part of this journey! Tune in next week for a breakdown of the Moroccan political system and the complex history of US-Moroccan relations! (I just graduated with a BS in political science, surely you all saw this one coming!) And of course, more stories from the classroom and an update on what will be my first week of celebrating Ramadan! The fast begins tonight at 2:30 AM, and I can’t wait to rise to the challenge, inshallah.

Chiming in just in time for brunch with the dearest of friends can make all the difference when you're an ocean away

Chiming in just in time for brunch with the dearest of friends, even just for ten minutes to say hello,  can make all the difference when you’re an ocean away.

Quick shout out to those of you who have continued to love on and support me from afar. Your constant texts, emails, and messages always brighten my day! From the bottom of my heart, thank you for helping me build a home away from home by reminding me that you’re only a phone call away. All my love!

Meet Morocco!

Salam alaykum, my friends!
In English, this greeting translates to “peace be with you”. I use it interchangeably with a hearty bonjour on a daily basis, but I must admit that the Arabic feels more genuine both to give and receive. I am continually intrigued by the linguistic identity of this country, where nearly everywhere I go I see French and Arabic side by side. That being said, my studies in French have proven to be my most valuable asset as I continue to build relationships with my fellow volunteers, the local staff, and my dear students.

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This is the Empowerment Office in downtown Rabat, where I teach intermediate and advanced English classes during the week.

 

I was fortunate to have an incredibly smooth arrival into Rabat, having befriended the man seated next to me on my flight from Paris. He was a young father excitedly returning to his wife and young child after two months of working abroad. In a display of what I’ve found to be classic Moroccan hospitality, my friend insisted on remaining with me until I had safely found my Country Director, Mohamed. It didn’t take long, and within a few minutes I was on my way back to Hay-Riad, the quiet yet bustling neighborhood where the home base is located.

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The river that separates Rabat from Salé, just 10 minutes away from our home base.

Determined to defeat the jet lag, I persevered through my exhaustion and stayed awake until 10:00 P.M. that day. I was terribly excited to finally meet Mohamed, a former PeaceCorps employee who happens to know quite a few of my friends and colleagues from my office at State in DC last summer. I also got to meet Hassan and Abdou, our security guard and bus driver. These three, as well as our incredible cook Fatiha and house manager Khadija, are all native Moroccans which creates such an authentic feeling in the home base. I speak French with all of them except for Mohamed, who usually speaks English because the other volunteers currently living in the home base, Kenzie and Kelly, speak neither French or Arabic. Throughout my three months here, there will be many volunteers coming and going through the house. Kelly left us on Friday and Kenzie will be on her way next weekend. All sorts of people come through CCS, though according to Mohamed its mostly older women who choose Morocco. Of course, there are always exceptions, such as myself! Nonetheless, I am excited to cross paths with so many different kinds of people throughout my time here!

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Khadija, my partner in sass, also used to work with the PeaceCorps.

I have decided that since I will be living in Morocco for the entirety of Ramadan, I am going to fast alongside my students and the local staff. Mohamed gave a particularly scintillating lecture on Islam this week, discussing the fast as a test of willpower and perseverance to remind us of all we have to be grateful for. By fasting, I hope my perspective will be challenged to feel and understand what it truly feels like to be hungry and thirsty, like so many throughout this country, my home country, and around the world. I am nervous of course, but I strongly believe that this is a challenge that coincides perfectly with the Lumos mission to culturally immerse and seek understanding. Not to mention that in Arabic, the verb “sam” means to fast, so perhaps that will work in my favor!

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The pictures don’t do the mountains justice, but Kenzie and I were having to much fun to worry about taking better ones... You’ll just have to go see for yourself! 😉

This weekend, Kenzie and I ventured out to Marrakech where we went quad biking (ATVs) in the dunes surrounding the breathtaking Atlas Mountains, explored the famous Marrakech Plaza/surrounding medina, (aka market) and relaxed in our peaceful riad. A riad is a word used to describe a house with a courtyard, and if you want to see why I’m quickly falling in love with this country, I encourage you to Google some images of Moroccan riads. People don’t really stay in hotels here... Instead they rent rooms in these beautiful courtyard houses with amazing rooftop terraces. You meet and often interact with your host, who is there to help you navigate the new place as much as you need. It’s a much more personal experience than a hotel, and Kenzie and I had an easy time getting around this intimidating city largely due to the kindness of our hosts. Needless to say, this was a wonderful weekend trip, only made better by the good company I shared!

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Watching the sunset from the terrace atop our beautiful riad in Marrakech.

Tune in next Monday to learn about what I’ve got going on in the classroom at the Empowerment Center, photos from my trip to the Chellah ruins, and a review of the famous Mawazine Music Festival!

 

The Duality of Commencement

This is where I will be living throughout my time in Rabat. As lovely as it looks in pictures, I can't wait to see it in person!

This is where I will be living throughout my time in Rabat. As lovely as it looks in pictures, I can’t wait to see it in person!

 

With only 16 days until graduation and a mere 30 days standing between me and my flight to Morocco, I have found myself quite preoccupied with the concept of commencement. This reflection was really inevitable, as I prepare to put my 17 years of education to use out in the ever-elusive real world. However, this idea of commencement does not only apply to those wearing graduation robes this May: It recurs through many different seasons of life, which is what makes the concept of commencement altogether worth further exploration.

The certain uncertainty of new beginnings always sounds so exciting at first. Though we as people are creatures of habit, there is something indescribably alluring about turning our world upside down and pursuing something new and previously unexplored. But just as we prepare to take the leap, a hefty dose of reality sets in. Am I ready for this change? Is this a good decision? How will I know?

The onslaught of doubt is not ill-founded: a major life change is occurring, and the transition will most assuredly be difficult at times. As a recent graduate, I am escaping the familiar, defined structure of college and am instead finding myself left entirely to my own devices. What I do in the fall is no longer determined by ClassFinder or the registrar, but by me. The friends I hold dear will scatter throughout the world, introducing new responsibilities in maintaining these friendships to overcome the perpetual distance. The tyranny of choice will set in as I continue to ponder: What comes next?

There is a great deal of beauty in the deeply unsettling nature of commencement. For as much as we may wear ourselves thin in trying to decide “What comes next?”, at the end of the day we ourselves have the power to determine not only what comes next, but how effectively we manage whatever it is that comes next. It is not fortune, be it good or bad, that makes or breaks a person: it is their attitude in coping, reflecting, and addressing the consequences of the choices they make that, in turn, make all the difference. In a world dictated by factors we cannot control, it is all the more important to harness our abilities over what we can control: ourselves.

How fitting then that our commencement ceremonies are held in the springtime, a season just as characterized by rain as it is by sunshine. As I prepare to begin my journey to Morocco, I am doing my best to embrace the hardships I know I will face. Spending three months alone in a foreign land is truly daunting. Add to it the harsh reality of having to rely solely on a second language to communicate, being absent for major milestones of friends back home, and the mounting pressure of committing to a professional next step upon returning to the States, and it becomes nearly paralyzing. But there can be sunshine amidst this rain, so long as I do not allow a poor attitude to cloud my judgment and prevent me from seeing the good that accompanies these omnipresent challenges. I am about to embark on an incredible journey of self-discovery, one that will forever taint the way I perceive the world around me.

And for that reason, with every day that passes, I will choose to be positive. I will choose to have faith. I will choose to always get back up and keep fighting when obstacles knock me down.

Commencement is a scary, beautiful thing. But even scarier and even more beautiful is the choice we have to make of commencement what we will. And with that being said I hope you, in whatever capacity of commencement you find yourself, will join me in rejecting the anxiety and embracing the adrenaline…It is time to leap!

A Trip to Jeffrey’s Bay!

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A three-day weekend calls for adventuring, and what better place to do so than South Africa? Last weekend we headed an hour west to Jeffery’s Bay, home of the Billabong Surfing Championships. After a road trip and a few wrong turns, we made it to Island Vibes, our hostel and home for the next few days.

From the moment we talked to the smiling Charmain at the front desk, I knew I would love Island Vibes. The laid-back, surf bum feel was absolute heaven to me. I had never stayed in a hostel before, but it ended up being AMAZING! It was kind of like living in a big house, except your house-mates just happened to be incredible surfers from all around the world. As I leaned over the balcony watch the waves crashing on the shore and breathed in the salt-tinged air, I was filled with bliss (how’s that for Island Vibes?) Continue reading

Burning of the Bulls

For foreigners visiting Guatemala, you need to leave the country every six months and get your passport stamped.  For most, that means crossing the Mexican border and coming back the next day.  Over the weekend, Hilary and I made our first border crossing to Cuauhtémoc, a small town buried in the gumdrop mountains of Chiapas, Mexico.  After a hard sleep on a rickety mattress at the Arcoiris, we crossed back into Guatemala, got our stamp without any hassle, and met up with Fredy and the family to spend the rest of the weekend at the Festival of the Virgin of the Candelaria.  The festival was in Jacaltenango, a richly Mayan city that rests on a high mountain slope and looks down on the plains of Mexico sitting just across the border.  On Saturday night, before the festivities began, Hilary and I found a quaint and friendly restaurant hidden in the alleys of the bustling market center and sat down for a plate of nachos.  Five unbelievable hours later, that quaint restaurant didn’t exist.

 

As we left the crowded market, we made our way back to our host’s home, navigating an ongoing parade in the darkness of the dim one-way streets.  Just as we arrived at the house, the family was preparing to join the parade with their marimba players and their two “Torocitos.”

A “Torocito” is a wooden construction, formed like a miniature tent, that is carried by parade-goers as they dance through the streets and represents the sacrifice of a bull to the virgin Mary.  Each Torocito is adorned with the figure of a bull’s face on its front, and the entire tent-like body is fully covered by an intricate system of dormant fireworks.

Jubilant coffee farmers carry their heavy marimbas through the city for two hours , switching between who gets to carry and who gets to play.  The Torocitos follow behind, twirling and dancing their roman-candle hides for the cheering families that fill the wrought-iron balconies.   Hilary and I each took a turn carrying the bulls, trying our hardest to dance with the cumbersome apparatus weighing heavy on our gringo shoulders.  The parade ended at the historic white cathedral, where the entire town park was filled with proud Guatemalans shouting prayers of thanks to Mother Mary.  Shadowy faces of curious children poke out of the tops of the manicured trees and great-grandmothers in their Mayan dresses smile to see such life burning in the city.  The Priest said a few words over the crowd, which was obviously restless with anticipation, and asked parents to remove their children from the park shrubbery.  Just as he finished his last refrain of a Catholic prayer, a rumble silenced the crowd and demanded the people’s attention.

 

Standing 30 feet high on opposite ends of the park were two steel-rod constructions.  Each of them boasted intricate design and impeccable symmetry.  The rumble that won the people’s interest were two great red eruptions at the bottom of the first edifice, the explosive start of a great web of paper fuses.  The 3-story metal golems, to my dismay, but to the wonderment of the majority, were enrobed in fireworks.

 

The firework display was very beautiful, but impressively dangerous.  Each tower sprayed embers at the crowd, a dense mass of people that stood only five feet away from its summit.  The crowd laughed with anxious fear as the sparks rained from the sky and mortars were tossed into the city streets.  During the middle of the second tower’s display, a whizzer-type firecracker took a wrong turn out of the platform and caught itself in an as-yet-unexploded part of the contraption.  The whizzer’s propulsion shook the metal safety hazard, and its burners tripped a fuse that wasn’t on cue.  A wheel started spinning with flaming sparklers and shot a fireball into a crowded group of unsuspecting onlookers.  Concerned teenagers stamped out the fiery intruder, which was intent on setting a trio of grandmothers ablaze.  People in the crowd ducked and began to run, but realized that being caught in a stampede was maybe more dangerous that enduring the rain of ember.  The pillars of fire finally finished their onslaught, and the crowd took their cue to clear the town square and make way for the night’s most terrible spectacle- The Burning of the Bulls.

 

Young men tied bandanas around their faces and pulled their hoods over greased black hair.  The town park, for the first time all day, sat empty, but a thousand onlookers huddled around the fences and park monuments for the main event of the evening.  At 12:00 midnight, the first bull stepped to the edge of the park.  The mountains sat darkly over the silent village and even the streetlights glinted in anticipation.  From across the park, you could hear the phosphorous of the first match slide across the side of the box, and we stopped breathing as the small blaze crept to the fuse.  Fire met paper, and the first Torocito took off.  The wooden bull danced violently through the square, spitting roman candles in every direction and dropping sparklers to singe frantic ankles.  Hundreds of young boys, hiding behind their sweat-soaked bandanas, chased the spitting bull around the park in the most chaotic stampede of juvenile aggression.  The boys howled towards the crescent moon while they dodged flaming grenades and shook the fire from their bodies.  They grabbed the frame of the bull and tried to confuse the runner, a young man trapped in a dark wooden triangle and deafened by the explosions of gunpowder, who crashed fearlessly into the horde of maddened sons.  Once the first bull’s ammunition ran dry, another runner was ready at the park’s edge to take its place.  The madness continued for 25 bulls, each one growing ever more daring, each one searching for the exposed flesh of a young Guatemalan to singe its brand.

 

I had no bandana and no hood, but I joined the mass as cautiously as I could with a parascoping camera in the air the whole time.  Each video looks like a warzone or a fiery zombie apocalypse with swarms of contorted bodies swirling around the flaming bulls, twisting, jumping, gnashing, and cackling.  Waves of terror and valor splashed across boy’s faces as my lens captured only rippling shadows encircling the bucking cannon animal.  I walked away from the pit of runners unscorched, but completely awestruck by the madness of the event.  It is a celebration wholly unique in the entire world.

 

When I left, a few bulls were still in line for their turn to terrorize, but at 1:00 in the morning with a 9-hour car ride the next day, I was ready to lay down.  The house we stayed at had three levels, and Hilary and I were on the very top.  I exited the last flight of stairs and walked out onto the roof of the house, where our room overlooked the mountain slopes and I walked to the edge to see if I could spot the lights of cars driving along the Mexican flatland.  When I arrived at the edge of the roof, I wasn’t greeted by the headlights of cars in another country.  I was met by a pillar of smoke and a tower of flame, 200-feet away from our front door, that was burning the center of Jacaltenango to the ground.

 

No one is sure where the spark came from.  It may have been a dancing bull, or it could have been a child’s sparkler.  It may have been grandmother with a candle praying to Mary, or it could have been a chicken-fryer that got too hot.  Whatever it was, it spread fast and burned violently.  It started in the crowded market, and it set everyone inside the claustrophobic alleys to a rapid exodus.  Screams of Guatemalans echoed against the mountains and terror ran like ocean current against short adobe houses.  I grabbed a friend from the house and ran outside to see what we could do.  A woman burst from her home and screamed that they needed water.  I ran back into the house and grabbed a small pot, filled it as fast I could, and told Fredy’s son to fill as many as he could find.  When I reached the street again, I started running, but I didn’t know where to go.  If I went into the wrong alley, I could block people trying to run out.  Not knowing the maze of the market, I could easily trap myself in a spot I couldn’t find my way out of.  Two people saw me with my pan and told me not to go.  They said firemen were on their way and my small pot of water didn’t matter; my measly drops wouldn’t help anything.  Without a great argument, I slumped back into the house, ashamed that I was too weak to help and too gringo to know a better solution.  I went back up to the roof and saw the fire growing.  Everyone from the celebration in the town park had formed lines around the inferno, tossing buckets, pans, and bowls of water and sand into the blaze as fast as they could.  By that time, all the family was on the roof watching.  I asked the owner of the house if there was anything I could do.  He told me no, that there were enough people down there already, then he turned back to look at his own city, burning with no end in sight.  He breathed heavy, pursed his lips, and tightened his shoulders.  He looked at me again and told me grab a bucket.  I imagine he was thinking we weren’t going to take pictures while his friends’ livelihoods were in danger.  He grabbed a trashcan and put it out on the street.  I ran a paint-bucket from the clothes-washing water reservoir at the back of the house to fill the trash can, bringing fresh gallons as fast as I could as members of the community used our front door as a filling station.  Every Jacalteco within miles was either pouring water, running it, or throwing it at the unflinching fire.  Thirty minutes after it had started, the firemen still hadn’t arrived.  As there was no fire station in Jacaltenango, firefighters were on their way from a nearby village.  I sloshed water all over the house as I prayed as hard as I have in a long time, and Hilary did the same from the rooftop.  The firetruck siren never rang, but people kept filling from the trash can.  I saw 80-year-old women make three trips from our door with buckets of water to be part of the fight.  Guatemalans are strong.  An hour after the fire started, thanks to a lot of sweat, many buckets, and a city loud with prayer, the town cheered.  The fire was out.

 

The night ended much later, after I had dried myself off and shared stories of the event with the family around the kitchen table.  They cut off the power to the city, so we sat around a candle and drank Cuba Libres to help our nerves.  It turns out Fredy had led the effort to put out the fire, organizing the bandana-clad boys into water-passing lines and assigning them to strategic spots around the blaze.  The restaurant where Hilary and I shared nachos only a few hours before was now a pile of ashes.  Though it started in the worst place possible, a crowded market full of drunk people filled with grease fryers, not a single person was injured.  I laid down to sleep at 5:00 on Sunday morning, thanking God for His mercy and His strength, and for the amazing example of community that saved a city from flames.  My nine-hour car ride back to Chimaltenango the next day was made more comfortable by my exhaustion and my gratitude to be safe after Mexico, after the bulls, and after the burning.

 

I was honored to carry Monte Cristo's  Torocito for a portion of the parade.

I was honored to carry Monte Cristo’s Torocito for a portion of the parade.

Hilary was such a fierce bull dancer.

Hilary was such a fierce bull dancer.

The firework towers rained sparks down on the crowd.

The firework towers rained sparks down on the crowd.

Lighting the first fuse for a bull run.

Lighting the first fuse for a bull run.

Two bulls are running in the square at the same time.  The Cathedral is on the left.

Two bulls are running in the square at the same time. The Cathedral is on the left.

Up close to one of the bulls, a crowd of young men are dancing around the fireworks.

Up close to one of the bulls, a crowd of young men are dancing around the fireworks.

This is when the fire was small.

This is when the fire was small.

A picture from beside our room on the rooftop.  The fire was three times as tall at its strongest.

A picture from beside our room on the rooftop. The fire was three times as tall at its strongest.

Weekend in Thamel

Upon arriving at the RCDP hostel in Kalanki last Tuesday, I was given a dal bhaat lunch, introduced to several new volunteers, and then told that not only was the hostel already full, but five new people were arriving from the airport that night, so the program was going to take me to the nicest tourist neighborhood in Kathmandu – called Thamel – and put me up in a hotel there for the duration of my last ten days in Nepal.

Despite my waning funds, I was happy to fore go the cockroaches and dal bhaat meals in Kalanki (since, after all, I’ve been living on dal bhaat for three months now) and venture out to make friends, use wifi, and feed myself in Thamel. I realized that my standards have changed when I became outraged with one fruit vendor who tried to sell me seven bananas for 150 rupees (USD $1.74). I haggled him down to 50 rupees (USD $0.58) and still felt ripped off. Oh no, I thought, walking away – how am I going to handle the move to Helsinki next week? The thought of paying 8 Euro (USD $9.83) for a relatively cheap lunch in Helsinki gave me goosebumps.

I’ve been enjoying my time in Thamel. The weather here in Kathmandu Valley is much warmer than up in the Himalayas. Whereas it averaged 50-70 F at Pema Chholing, it’s upwards of 85 F in the humid capital. The non-existent Nepali constitution, which was supposed to have been written and approved back in May by whatever chaotic group of people now constitutes the governing body, never was. So the strikes continue, and continue to thwart the plans of my fellow volunteers who’d like to move around the city. Public transportation doesn’t run during the strikes, and if you’re lucky enough to find a taxi driver who’ll risk it, you’ll pay upwards of 5-10 times the normal fare. Fortunately, since my trip to the Finnish Embassy last Wednesday (I’m now officially a resident of the EU!), I haven’t needed to leave Thamel.

I’ve spent my days here wonderfully... taking my morning cafe au lait (oh, how I’ve missed coffee!) in breezy rooftop cafes high above the hustle and bustle of morning traffic; catching up on work, emails, and research while enjoying the company of fellow travelers (it seems that everyone who comes to Nepal is interesting – after all, people don’t come here from the West for the comforts of a luxurious vacation; it’s neat to explore the different motives that bring others to this beautiful yet impoverished land). I spend the late afternoons and evenings wandering the streets around Thamel, browsing stores full of trinkets I like to inspect but don’t want to buy, trying on hats and saris and traditional shoes because it’s fun to dress up and the vendors have fun with me too, and people watching.

I woke up this morning with a deep, throaty cough and my body racked in pain. I’ve been told it’s a throat infection – something that many people get from the pollution on the streets – and it feels exceptionally strange to be hacking up a lung in the middle of summer. This is the type of cough I’d expect to fight in the dead of winter, or a long, drizzly spring. Not when traipsing around in flip flops and sun dresses.

In Nepal, life in Thamel is the polar opposite of life at Pema Chholing. Yet I’m happy here. After travels in 30 countries, experiencing both the perks of life as a US diplomat and the lows of Nepali outhouses; organic home-cooked meals from Trader Joes and a 3-month pure rice diet, the beautiful ocean views from a ritzy apartment and a $1 per night mattress-on-the-floor hotel....I’m starting to think that there’s nowhere I won’t be happy.

I don’t think it’s completely sunk in that this will be my last week in Nepal, and yet on some level I know it: I’ve been collecting my photo souvenirs – the best kind – they don’t cost anything, won’t be a hassle to stuff in a bag, and won’t incur any additional luggage fees. I’ll post them, print them, gift them, and look at them whenever I need to relive Nepal...

Happy Day!

I wake up bubbling over with joy today. Life is wonderful.

I’m happy to be part of such an amazing community where friends are family.
I’m thankful for the hour I got to spend on the phone with my mom yesterday, the 4th of July, and impressed with the excellent cell reception I get even when calling from the exact opposite side of the globe.
I’m thankful that I was born in a free country that the world envies, a place where people from every corner of the globe dream of living.
I’m looking forward to the walk to Lukla tomorrow and a chance to check my email, check in with my friends.
I’m happy that I’ll be back on the trail for four hours, in the company of my good friends Sapana and Pasang.
I’m so thankful for Sapana’s friendship and the memories we’ve made here at Pema Choling.
I’m excited for her and all the possibilities as she continues her five-month journey to Kathmandu, Pokhara, Lumbini, then to volunteer in Africa and hopefully to visit me in Finland come September.
I’m excited about the the cloth I’ll buy at the tailor’s on the way back from Lukla, and the little drawstring pouches I’ll make for my little monks to keep their marbles, rubber bands, candies, and other treasures.
I’m overjoyed when I remember that I’ve been accepted to a Master’s program, that my Finnish residency permit has been approved, and that – even though it will be so hard to leave my beloved Himalayan home and friends – I’ll start a whole new adventure in just two months.
I smile upon making friends with Dawa, my only Sherpa girl friend, and when she tells me she only completed seventh grade before starting to work, I’m infinitely thankful for the education I’ve received at one of my country’s best universities.
I’m so excited because look at all this free time I have! And how much there is to learn here! Sherpa society; Buddhist history and philosophy; Nepali culture; farming and horticulture; Nepali, Sherpa and Tibetan languages; building and construction; art and sculpture; not to mention a dozen books I hope to finish on my Kindle in the next month.
I’m giddy because I told my mom about Pasang’s incredible artistic talent, his desire to take a break from monastic life after 14 years, his gentle patience with the younger monks and capacity to teach, and my silent wish that I could bring him to America as a master craftsman to share Buddhist art and technique with the West.... I’m giddy because my mom is so passionate about others; she believes in their talents and dreams and has offered to help me help Pasang and is actively looking for schools, universities, art guilds, monasteries, and Buddhist foundations that may sponsor or host him.
I’m joyous because I live on top of the world, and at this moment I wouldn’t trade the breathtaking view from my bedroom for any of the First World comforts.
I’m thankful because I can’t imagine a more blessed life than this.